On Ghosts and other demons….

“Your mind is full of emotional ghosts” she said in a way as if that is the root cause of all my problems. “And what do you mean by that I asked. ‘Well you see ghosts breathe in the past but live in the present, just like these tiny ghosts in the form of old memories trying to breathe their imagination in your past but stubbornly determined to live in the present narrow alleys of your mind’s grey matter, and you know that is the problem with your country and countrymen as well…too many ghosts breathing from the past air”

“Well if that is the case why do you think it is such a bad thing”, naturally I became a bit defensive as any patriot person who is in love with himself and his land will do.

“Well nothing bad in having the ghosts, the problem is, being aware of these ghosts and not coming in terms with them, you have always been trying to run from them, and for the same reasons they disturb you more and more, these ghosts are emotional beings just like us and are thirsty of attention you know, if you ignore them or run away from them out of fear, they will haunt you more and more, seeking and even stealing your attention in most unusual places, but if you accept their existence and secure them like a rose in an old book, their smell will dominate the most saddest pages of your book, they will rest in peace , part by part dissolving in the thin space of your mind universe, till the time only a pinch of their fragrance is left ” and she added ” same is the case with your country, too many ghosts living from the past and everybody, in being afraid of them serving them unknowingly, rather then letting them rest and sleep and move forward”

“And do you think this is what causes me all these emotional outbursts?? ” I asked

“Pretty much i think” she said jokingly and added ” perhaps your ghosts are now copulating and giving birth to new generation of kid ghosts inside your mind, these kiddos who only know how to cry all the times without knowing much about their biological or shall i say ghost-ical fathers and mothers . Like you see most of your countrymen are born much after all the bad things happened to your land 60years ago, they were not even in liquid form at that time, but they still cry for the past air and old enemies, of which they were never a part of and became emotional with old enemies while living in the present.

“But these ghosts give me a sense of my identity, how can i define my self without my past”

“See there is a difference between identifying with your past and identifying with your core values… these ghosts have blurred your vision of your core values, they make you feel they are more important for you then your core values. Your core values is not serving your past, but things like happiness, enjoying life with friends and family, learning and interacting with the unseen world of knowledge and someday to accomplish a sense of understanding of your whole life. Rest all is just ghostly Soap operas and energy spinning in negative spirals….”

Sometimes I think she has the ability of breaking me into so many small alphabets and in doing so showing how to spell my own life, letter by letter, so i can spell her correctly……