About Journeys in life

There is yet another journey , i know deep in my heart that i have to take. A journey not even started, but is already creating most of the bubbles sparkling in the watery heart of mine. I know i have to prepare alot even to take the first step, even to think of taking the first step and being fearfully bored about it even more to pass through the whole cycle …..perhaps the most difficult to reach the finish line and stop and return, and yet i am thinking WTF , why to go all the way when I can already imagine all the moments of accomplishments and joys of glory i would be getting on the finish line and along the way. Yet the mere idea of going on this specific journey is unexplain-ably seductive.

I have been thinking on the nature of journeys we all humans take. We all are in a constant perpetual state of making journeys, finishing each, one by one, or multiple journeys at the same time just to begin the new ones …. Journeys taken voluntarily or imposed…..Journeys of pursuing our worldly goals, serving the commands of our desire-masters living inside us….this car,that house, this life, that love, this town, that country…raising a child or traveling on a learning spiritual path…… Journeying our way through pages of our favorite novel, following the protagonist …..or taking a shot walk of imagination in our minds……..every thing in our conscious and unconscious world can be termed as a journey…every desire, every instant thought perhaps is a journey already traveled halfway….. a journey from one point of present standing to a future point of wishful ending is all it sums up to….

A friend of mine perhaps trying to forget herself taking the journey of seeing the world in pictures indulging in photography……the other one being excited of a trip to europe she intends to make, yet another one being happy already with mere imagination of ‘raising a child’ journey she intends to travel, the initial 9 months and the whole life ahead, already imagining all the joys she would be having out of that whole journey………. All these journeys I am seeing and hearing and on top of that my own journeys that I have undertaken, halfway or not even started…. WTF are they for…..

All our lives we plan and re-plan, travel and re-travel, finish and re-finish these journeys we imagine for our life to undertake (never geting bored of imagining more and more) to the extent that we forget our very own awareness of being alive in the instance of present reality around us……. or is it perhaps for the same very reasons of forgetting our instance of present reality, we pursue these journeys consciously and unconsciously…. all our lives??

Is it so dreadful even to imagine stopping for once , to catch our breath, taking a deep breath smelling the time spread around us……. and to sit and look all the static not moving things in the vicinity and enjoy them shining in their present reality….So un-move-ingly beautiful…… or is it so against the human nature enjoying that static beauty????