“But why can one not start to love someone after marriage” , my little remaining not so western part of soul asked her . Ertyaas gave me a very long smiling gaze, the gaze she seldom gives, and after a long smiling silence said, “ your soul is too small to understand that sort of great love, you will be blown away with that sort of love my dear, its not for the fainthearted” , and she laughed long after that. I was confused as usual by the way she gazed at me and more confused on what she was saying, for we normally always differ on every discussion and…

Am thinking for quite some time, if there is a far far remote possibility that the desires and wishes from our fathers and forefathers may have the ability to travel through the genes and are still alive some where in a dark hidden corner of our DNA code? Off-course there is alot of instinctive behavior that we humans do instinctively, like craving for eating, copulating, survival stuff but i am not talking about that and I am also not talking about the desires that the parents associate with their sons and and daughters.I am talking about the desires that one wishes for him self, I am talking about all the…

I am standing now on crossroads, in a serious acute trilemma. I am seeing three clear paths to choose from for my future life and the irony is my heart is divided for all three. A long time back Ertyass asked me of why it is not possible to love 2 persons and the whole world at the same time, i was naive and emotional back then but while standing on this cross road right now, i am remembering her words. I want to live all these three lives that i define but my heart is equally divided. The tiny hearts within my heart city are lobbying based on their…